10000 and more to go

Piggy babe had reached the 10000 mark on Christmas eve. *sigh* It's a sign to tell that she is not young anymore. Yeap she is 5 months old now. But she looks older than her real age because I don't take good care of her outlook that great. I am such a lousy owner. *sigh*

Mixed Feeling

I have mixed feelings. I was not very emotionally stabled recently. Small small issues were enough to drive me nuts and made me cried so pathetically. It must be the hormones or it was just that i was bursting because of i have been suppressing all these for awhile which my conscious mind didn't realize? I was crying the other day in the car while driving alone. It's a real cry which I just can't help to stop. I find it more a relief after crying. I do wonder if I was not placed to be at this point of life now, what would my life be? Do I have alternatives? Do you wish to have a second chance to opt again at a certain point of your life? I do sometimes think impractically. What if this and what if that. *slap* girl, pls wake up.....nobody is gonna help you if you choose to live in the past.